The Real Situation

Before, i wrote about my grandpa. But, I have no idea that the situation was really bad.. I just heard the story through the phone.. I don't even expect that the situation was really bad.. Until I read my sister's blog (which had been hidden from me.. ).. And now, i got the figure on how the situation was. And I feel like crying.. Well, if only she could write better, i think i'm gonna cry.. Here the story goes:

dis is my lovely grandpa..
korang nk komen per??
kkampungan??
comey?
skema?
like i care ney..

mlm 2 aku dh tdo,,
then dpt cl from my uncle..
tanye my dad ktne..
masa 2 abi g hunting,,
hoby abi every weekend..
i cant say nothing bler my uncle buat suara cemas g2..
den i know dat tok chek sakit..
sume org on da way blk..
except me n d oder aunt,,
coz hubby dier outstation.
puas dkerah,, ajak umi blk,,
kg agak la jauh..
umi ckp nk btolak pg..
thats make me mad.
ayyok.
smpai aku ckp umi xsyg tok chek sbb tok chek juz bpa mertua..
sorry ummie...
anak umi ni mmg teruk..

pg 2 smpai la jgak..
mcm ada kenduri..
rmai sgt org..
beg tggl dulu dlm kete..
sume g tgok tok chek..
no description..
sume yg keliling tok chek adalah anak2nyer..
masa 2 keadaan tkawal agi..
cume bila tiba saat2 gtg,,
bla my uncle pggl suh bce yassin,,
sedey sgt..
mula2 xde la smpai nk namgis,,
sbb kne harungi ngan tenang..
tp suasana 2 buat kter pon leh kawal..

tgah hari my aunt smpai..
die xpduli pon kt baby dier,,
trus g kat tok chek..
nangis lg...
masa 2 smpai nk marah kt abi,,
sbb cume abi sorang x sampai..
cik.din dh warning,jgn sbut pun nama abi,,
sbb tok chek dok tanye,,
samaada sume anak2nye dh smpai blum..
hiba sgt..

pas2 hp p.da bunyik,,
aku p la tgok,,
kuar nama abi..
trus aku jawab..
abi pon tanye la basa basi,,
sbb masa 2 abi tataw paper pon lg..
ini adalh kerana xde signal phone tok cl abi masa kt jungle 2..
time kte bru nk start ckp,,
p.da li pun naik,,mtk hp nk ckp..
tp bkn bcakap,,
nangis..
uiks..
law cm2 baik bg kte yg ckp,,
bru la x buat abi saspen..
abi kn ada heart attack..

at last smpai gak abi kt rumah..
dr jauh dh dgar ngauman enjin pajero 2,,
masa 2 sy xpcaye sbb abi x mungkin bley bwk pajero selaju 2..
dier bley drift kt kg ni..
ish3...
kawan abi la yg bwk..
huhu..

masa abi smpai 2 yg plg
myayat hati..
sampai my bro yg stubborn pun bley nangis..
n dat 4 the 1st time i saw my dad nangis..he is da strong man..
love you dad..

nk dkat malam 2,,
tok chek gering lg..
masa 2 smpai mcm nk marh..
sbb??
sbab ramai org lain yg ada kt c2..
smpai xde ruang ahli kluarga tdekat nk uduk,,
rasa mcm nk halau jer..
haha..
jahat giler aku...
yg plg aku nk hangin lagi masa tok chen mkn tenat,,
aku dengar abi cakap..

"ya ayyatuhan nafsul mutmainnah, irji'i ila rabbiki raadiatan mardiah..fadkhuli fi 'ibaadi, wadkhuli jannati.."


" wahai jiwa yang tenang....pulanglah ke pangkuan TUHANmu dgan keredhaan dan kepujian,,sertailah ruang ibadatKU,, dan masuklah kesyurgaKU.."

terms and condition apply,, makna n ayat buat sendiri. n x taruk qoola ALLAH eh kt c2..

x aci btol..
mcm nk doakan tok chek pergi..

childish rite??
kdg2 kewarasan akal bleh hlg
tnpa dsedari,,
bla kte mgalami sesuatu yg x pnah kte alami..

tp kan..........................


skarang tok chek dh sihat blk..
lpas operate,,
jumpe serpihan kayu yg tajam gler sbesar jari kelingking
dlm lengan..
mana ke x sakit..
sbb tok chek degil masa 2,,
xnk pegi hosp..

tp sume dh blalu dgn baik..
n i love the only one family dat i had ever got.
love u all..

Ya Allah,,
berkatilah perjalanan hidup kami,,
panjangkan umur kami..
dan matikanlah kami dalam iman..
agar kami dapat bersama2 merasai nikmat syurgamu kelak..
aamiin...

I know that ummi tak boleh drive malam tu jugak, mesti penat., tambah lg masa tu Hafizi demam. Dan, ummi plak bukan jenis suka jelaskan sebab musabbab sesuatu tindakan diambil, sbb tu la anak2 selalu salah faham.. kui2.. tambah2 lak adikku yg terover sensitif sorang nih.

Argghh, i really hate of not being able to be beside them in such situation. No word could describe. Moga rahmat Allah menaungi kami.. Ihfaz usrati Ya ALLAH, wa anta KHAIRUL HAAFIZEEN!

And this gonna be my biggest reason to be back home every year. hehehe.. I want to see them, especially my grandparent. When i was about to take off from Malaysia, they really want to accompany me to KLIA, but my parent cant allow them, bcause of their health condition. At that time, my grandma was really unable to walk. And when my grandpa wants to come along, she said, "you want to go on the weelchair?" Then my grandpa stay at home. It was a really sad moment when i kissed her hand, and she kissed my cheeks, saying that she might not has the chance to see me again. And i got no word to say.

Latest story, he is now recovered from that illness. Tapi sakit orang tua.. Nak cakap pun tak reti.. Tiap kali call, mesti ummi gitau diorang dah tak larat nk berjalan pergi surau. Then, kekadang pak su hantarkan dgn motorsikal. Lgpun umur diorang pun dah dekat 80.. Tu pun kira diorang dah sihat sangat la berbanding syuyukh yg seumur. I hope, by ALLAH's will, they could have the chance to see me as a doctor..

I should have USD 1000 saving for the flight ticket in case of emergency.. Ya ALLAH, aku tinggalkan mereka dalam pengawasan-Mu. Pastilah ENGKAU mengetahui apa yang terbaik bagi hamba-hamba Mu!